Something's FINALLY happening!

Being proactive, I called my OB Nurse contact, Shelia to see about getting some zofran called in before my health insurance switches from VHAP to MVP. (MVP I pay 50% of medications, VHAP I pay $1).

I got a call back from Micky (my OB-RN with my other 2 pregnancies). She was thrilled I was PG again, and surprised I haven't had my "1st" OB apt yet. I explained that I didn't think the RE wanted to release me to OB yet, and how frustraitied I was, especially since I didn't work with the RE's to get PG this time.

I told her about my 3 blood draws, and 1 u/s, and told her my LMP puts me around 7 weeks now, but since the 1st u/s only showed 2 sacks and no HB, he dated me back to 5w5d, and put me about a week behind my LMP. I also told her about my 2nd u/s on the 13th.

She wondered if I was planning to do the NT scan again, and I told her I thought it was a good idea since last time that's the scan we found out about the cyctic hygroma (aka the nuchal fold measuring at 8... 3 or less is normal).

She got pretty mad that I wasn't getting in for the 1st OB and was concerned that I may be too late to get the NT scan if I waited much longer.

SO

She's doing some juggling and will be calling me back by tomorrow with my 1st OB apt. Proabably will be Mid August!

AND

She's working with the pre-auth dept. to get my VHAP to cover the zofran, so I'll be good to go. I should (if no more red tape) be able to get the zofran in the next day or so, and she's ordering 3 a day, so should be able to get through the rest of this trimester without too much more issue.

I'm SO HAPPY that things are finally moving. Guess I just needed to take matters into my own hands!

you know I ought to know better by now.........

ME!

This is what I feel like today!

Backed up!

My workload is piling up. Our system is down and there is a bit of a bottle neck as work is getting distributed, however now that there is stuff to do, I don't wanna!

I'm hungry, I'm full, I'm backed-up.

I feel bloated/crampy, and generally Blah! I would love to put my feet up and sleep for a bit. I would love to lay down and watch junk TV. I would love to NOT BE AT MY DESK!

What's a preggo girl to do???

Can't keep a secret!

Okay, I'm really cautious and beging very careful choosing my words, etc. Last night, there was a committee meeting at my home, and while walking the folks out we were chatting about our new and larger home. I made a comment and it was taken out of context...

P.S. Last night when I was leaving your lovely new home, Barbara and I were talking about apartments and she mentioned that Quarry Hill (where my son is moving to) wasn't large enough for your expanding family. I didn't think anything of it then, but now.... is she referring to a new baby by any chance????Or am I just making this up?

Here's the deal... it's no secret that we've been trying. Figured my comment only implied that we want to expand the family, not that we already have.

When Craig shared this note with me I cried! He said I had a big mouth, but was only teasing me.

I'm super hormonal. I felt like I was being attacked, that I purposely told her, hey, well, we're PG now. Seriously, I turned down the smaller apt, long before we even conceived this bean!

I explained my hormone overload, and Craig doesn't fully get it. Pregnant woman are highly emotional women with raging hormones. He thinks my hormonones are bad when I'm on my period?!?!?

So I'm now torn, should we just announce this already?? If we have a loss, maybe more support?? Or will I jinx it all? I know if this is going to happen, nothing I "say" will make any difference to the outcome.

Also, can I say I am not moving forward?? I feel stuck. Having my EDD moved back 4 days, seems like an eternity.

My March Due Date group is so far ahead of me. Even mom's at exactly 6 weeks today are seeing HB on their u/s and I went in at 6w2d and saw nothing!

Joined the April Due Date group too, and feel closer to them via milestones.

I am lost.

At least I found a "Fluffy Mom's" group. Can at least get tips where to get momma plus size maternity clothes, 'cause I'm going to be wicked huge!

Anyhoo, I'm okay, really, just emotional today, and feeling stalled out. I'm sick of looking at my 6 week ticker. I'm ready to see it move on! I feel like I've been 6 weeks PG for 2 weeks now!!

ETA: My payroll lady at worked tracked me down 'cause I "didn't fill out my vacation time card correctly", but found me in the lunch room, and stated "I figured you'd be in here with the food". WTH? My HR manager knows, but does payroll too? Why would she say that... taking it like... "oh the PG lady at the buffett, of course!"

God I'm either hyper sensitive, or EVERYONE ALREADY KNOWS!!

Ready for a nap, but no where to sleep

I'm really dragging. 1st day back to work after vacation, and I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open. It's 1:30, so still have quite a few more hours to go. I don't have a car here today (Craig has it) and there is no private "couch" area to snooze in. If I sleep at my desk, everyone will get suspicious.

I'm eating/grazing, thought that'd help, but it's not. I tried cold water on my face too. Even a walk around the block. So what else can I try?

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Back to work aka Rambling's of a Hormonal woman

Well, my vacation is officially over. :( Had a great time, but now it's back to work. I've got the "pantry" stocked. Tons of fruits and veggies to snack on in the fridge, a new bag of BBQ chips, a coffee travel mug concieling MILK with ice, and my bella band in place.

Getting out the door was interesting today, gonna have to try harder tomorrow to get out on time.

I woke up 3-4 times last night to pee, and everytime, I found myself starving. I can't eat all night long. Ridiculous. Even this morning, as I was eating my cereal, I was ravenous. Crazy! I've had my 2nd breakfast and it's only 10am. And I'm ready for more!

I brought a weeks worth of food today... will probably eat it all!

Please please please let me stay awake, focused, and puke free today. I have zofran in my purse, just in case, but hope to hold off a bit longer on that. I only have enough to make it to 12 weeks exactly if I took 1 a day from now on. God help me if I am still sick after 12 weeks. Oh well, I'll be so fat, everyone's going to know by then anyway.

There's no work to do. I took the "dead week" off last week, so coming in today, my properties still haven't gotten anything submitted, so there isn't much to do. Wish I brought my book today. Note to self... bring a book tomorrow.

I'm in my super strechty baggy shorts today, and have to wear the band! Eek. Will I be in the maternity clothes this week??? I know I'm getting bigger earlier, just hoped to get more life out of my clothes.

Oh, and my co-worker.... grrrr.... it's bad enough he begged for baby donations via change jar in the breakroom. Then I come in to catch up on email and see he's now sent a company wide email blatenly requsting we all give him our cribs, dressers, changing tables, car seats, high chairs, strollers... I'm steaming. So inappropriate and I can't really say anything. I can't even complain about the perfume my co-worker is wearing 1 cubical over 'cause if I complain about things that smell, it'll tip everyone off.

Just need to make it to the NT scan. If all is well, I can happily announce. Ugh, now he's throwing out names, and wants to use "hannah" which is MY name. Hormonal is making being here really hard!!!

He's kidding about the name... Going to name her Hannah Ford, so when she grows up and works here and they say they're going to clean out the fridge,she can say, my name is on the bag since her lunch will be in a "hanaford's" grocery sack. Still... it's MY name. He can't have it!!!!!

This sucks. I want to cry.

Today I Shop!

Back from shopping trip with Natalya. We ate lunch first, then to momma maternity... got a pair of cargo capris/pants, and 2 t-shirts. Nice and baggy. :) Also another bella band and a bra extender. Now I should be able to make it through the rest of this trimester before needing to buy more clothes.

Too bad all my saved maternity is for 3rd trimester/summer. Tanks and shorts not at all helpful going into the fall/winter. Lol. I'm going to sell my old mat clothes and use the $$ to get new stuff. Shopping is fun! Especially when you feel icky. Thank you zofran.

Also for fun, I showed Natalya what the PG pillow in the dressing room was for. I put it on...

good god I'm going to be huge!!!