Had my u/s today, and we saw that yes, I am pregnant. There was a gestational sac and a yolk sac, and it was in my uterus, so no ectopic worries, etc. No fetus yet, no heart beat yet, and measuring 4 days behind.
This baffled me as I am positive of my "o" date, but guess I'm not exact on fertilization date which is when the dating officially begins. The doctor looked at my chart and thinks that we may had fertilized the egg around the 4th, not the 30th, which puts us off exactly 4 days. So my EDD changed to 3/27/10, and I'm apparently 5w5d today. Not quite a "pea" yet.
He wants me to come back on 8/13/10 for another u/s. Friday the 13th. Eek. Hopefully in 2 weeks we'll see a happier result. The good news, I'm still PG, just not as PG as I thought I was.
4 days off shouldn't be a big deal, but for some reason, it was a bit upsetting to me. Probably have too much knowledge of what's going on with my body/cycle.
When I was surprised about how I wasn't as far along as I thought, the Doctor explains, "well, that's why we go by LMP"... Um, excuse, me... if we go by that then I'd be even further that my calculations... My LMP puts me at 6w4d. But I'm measuring 5w5d. Explain that to me!
Oh well, just trying to remain calm. I'm still pregnant, I'm still pregnant, I'm still pregnant...
Will see what we have to see in 2 weeks. Great...... another 2 week wait. Ugh.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Surrounded by miscarriage
Many of the women in my pregnancy due date group are experiencing miscarriages. It's like a plague and it's got me really nervous.
No, I haven't had any bleeding, and yes, I will not let DH anywhere near my cervix (poor honey) and yeah, I still have tightening in my belly, fatigue, and general laziness taking over, but am I still pregnant?
Would I even know if the baby was already gone? Should I stop taking unisom/b6 just to see if I'd throw up? Would throwing up make me feel more confident that I was still PG?
My head's spinning, and am just wondering when this ride will come to an end for me? Hoping so hard that that time will be the end of March, when baby comes home. It's hard to be supportive of others and seek support when all the m/c stories are freaking me out. I want to be there for them, but really, does hearing "I'm so sorry for your loss" or the like at all comforting? It wasn't for me when I lost Alice.
I want to hide in my protective bubble and come out okay. Knowing I have an u/s on Friday gives me a little hope. But even if that scan goes great, I'm not at all out of the woods. It's such a scary time - early pregnancy.
Craig doesn't fully understand why it is that I can not run in the field with Natalya chasing after her kite. He does not understand why I can't help her play on the wii (too tiring to do the dance moves for her), and he doesn't get my lethargy. I'm PG and I'm tired. Why doesn't he get it? Maybe I'm not PG anymore, and I'm just lazy??
Don't know when the fear of potential loss will subside. When can I just relax and know in full confidence that I'm PG and growing this baby???
Questions that remain unanswered.
No, I haven't had any bleeding, and yes, I will not let DH anywhere near my cervix (poor honey) and yeah, I still have tightening in my belly, fatigue, and general laziness taking over, but am I still pregnant?
Would I even know if the baby was already gone? Should I stop taking unisom/b6 just to see if I'd throw up? Would throwing up make me feel more confident that I was still PG?
My head's spinning, and am just wondering when this ride will come to an end for me? Hoping so hard that that time will be the end of March, when baby comes home. It's hard to be supportive of others and seek support when all the m/c stories are freaking me out. I want to be there for them, but really, does hearing "I'm so sorry for your loss" or the like at all comforting? It wasn't for me when I lost Alice.
I want to hide in my protective bubble and come out okay. Knowing I have an u/s on Friday gives me a little hope. But even if that scan goes great, I'm not at all out of the woods. It's such a scary time - early pregnancy.
Craig doesn't fully understand why it is that I can not run in the field with Natalya chasing after her kite. He does not understand why I can't help her play on the wii (too tiring to do the dance moves for her), and he doesn't get my lethargy. I'm PG and I'm tired. Why doesn't he get it? Maybe I'm not PG anymore, and I'm just lazy??
Don't know when the fear of potential loss will subside. When can I just relax and know in full confidence that I'm PG and growing this baby???
Questions that remain unanswered.
I'm sorry to hear that
I explained to Natalya this morning, that I'm going to be going through changes, I'm going to be tired, possibly throwing up, but it's okay. I'm not sick, I'm pregnant, and that means I'm growing a baby inside of me and that you're going to be a big sister. Natalya looks me in the eye and is very serious... I'm sorry to hear that. Great. :P Hoping she'll come around. LOL.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Maternity Clothes???
Sadly, I attempted to begin looking at maternity clothes today. Hated everything I saw and couldn't bring myself to try anything on. Guess I'm going to wait a bit longer. At my work it's so casual dress that people can come to work in their PJs and it's okay, so i think I'm going to make use of my yoga pants at the office until I find something more suitable to my style taste. Think I'm going to visit old navy online...
Bad Reactions
I told my parents I was pregnant last night. They were less than thrilled. Now what? I'm devastated.
I don't get it with my folks. Makes no sense to me. Guess it's their problem and if they want any relationship with me and my family they'll come around.
We lost our baby in 2008, it's been 2 years of healing and TTC. I'm ready. The doctors said I was ready. No one is worried about my health, except them perhaps.
It's not like I'm asking them for money or financial support, so I really don't know why they're as upset as they are. Screw them, right?? Seriously, they should be thrilled to be getting another grandchild. They only have 1 right now, and I'm the only one left that can give them more. My brother can't make babies... he's sterile and his wife has no uterus.
I don't get it with my folks. Makes no sense to me. Guess it's their problem and if they want any relationship with me and my family they'll come around.
We lost our baby in 2008, it's been 2 years of healing and TTC. I'm ready. The doctors said I was ready. No one is worried about my health, except them perhaps.
It's not like I'm asking them for money or financial support, so I really don't know why they're as upset as they are. Screw them, right?? Seriously, they should be thrilled to be getting another grandchild. They only have 1 right now, and I'm the only one left that can give them more. My brother can't make babies... he's sterile and his wife has no uterus.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Breaking News! (good news)
We told my in-laws. Rather, waited for them to see out "artwork". Took them long enough, but when MIL saw it finally, she was overjoyed. She and FIL cried a little. We're so happy they're happy. Next up...u/s on Friday.
Anxious
23 dpo today. Beginning to wonder... am I still pregnant? Should I pee on a stick. No Beta draw ordered, still have a week until the ultra sound. We're telling my in-laws today, guess I'm nervous and excited. Afraid I may jinx it, but know deep down that I'm still in the throws of all of this.
I'm so focused on "what I need to do today" and Craig is getting stressed out and overwhelmed about "what needs to be done by March". Poor husband. It's all too much to bear on one's shoulder alone. We talked, both feel better, and both realize we've sort of stepped into it. Like always, I know if we're meant to bring this bean home we'll make it work. We're a strong family.
I'm feeling the waves of m/s but (knock on wood) still haven't lost my lunch. Eating is interesting. I fill up pretty fast, and I'm hungry 5 min later. My regiment of unisom and b6 seems to be keeping the m/s under control. I'm pretty tired, and worn out by 4pm. Been falling asleep pretty early, but waking up at 1am to pee, and then having trouble getting back to sleep. How long is this going to last?
Don't know how keen Natalya is going to be about all of this. Her regression (potty training) is pretty severe, and we're having to restrict benefits, such as NO TV and NO SITTING ON THE FURNITURE. And last night... :( No bedtime story. It makes me sad, and I hate to be the punisher.
Craig hinted that she may be sharing her room... she didn't seem happy about that at all. Maybe the baby can have his/her own room? We have a 2 bedroom apt. Natalya's room is huge and there is plenty of room for 2 children to share. It's just the way it's going to have to be. It's going to really be a challenge, and with me so tired, I have to lean on Craig a lot right now.
Very grateful for my in-laws being here for a week. It's going to be great to visit and, well, frankly, have a little extra help around here. Maybe we'll actually get the rest of this stuff unpacked!
I'm so thankful for every moment I'm still pregnant. I'm embracing all of this, and trying to remain calm. Chaos ensues around me, and I have to just sit down and chill.
Should I get another HPT? Would seeing another BFP find me relief for worry? What if the test came back lighter? Would I freak out???
Need to keep it together...
I'm so focused on "what I need to do today" and Craig is getting stressed out and overwhelmed about "what needs to be done by March". Poor husband. It's all too much to bear on one's shoulder alone. We talked, both feel better, and both realize we've sort of stepped into it. Like always, I know if we're meant to bring this bean home we'll make it work. We're a strong family.
I'm feeling the waves of m/s but (knock on wood) still haven't lost my lunch. Eating is interesting. I fill up pretty fast, and I'm hungry 5 min later. My regiment of unisom and b6 seems to be keeping the m/s under control. I'm pretty tired, and worn out by 4pm. Been falling asleep pretty early, but waking up at 1am to pee, and then having trouble getting back to sleep. How long is this going to last?
Don't know how keen Natalya is going to be about all of this. Her regression (potty training) is pretty severe, and we're having to restrict benefits, such as NO TV and NO SITTING ON THE FURNITURE. And last night... :( No bedtime story. It makes me sad, and I hate to be the punisher.
Craig hinted that she may be sharing her room... she didn't seem happy about that at all. Maybe the baby can have his/her own room? We have a 2 bedroom apt. Natalya's room is huge and there is plenty of room for 2 children to share. It's just the way it's going to have to be. It's going to really be a challenge, and with me so tired, I have to lean on Craig a lot right now.
Very grateful for my in-laws being here for a week. It's going to be great to visit and, well, frankly, have a little extra help around here. Maybe we'll actually get the rest of this stuff unpacked!
I'm so thankful for every moment I'm still pregnant. I'm embracing all of this, and trying to remain calm. Chaos ensues around me, and I have to just sit down and chill.
Should I get another HPT? Would seeing another BFP find me relief for worry? What if the test came back lighter? Would I freak out???
Need to keep it together...
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