Monday, March 21, 2011
Empowered or Fear?
I just took a stand in my Temple Membership and Marketing Committee. It's a silly stand, and really nothing comes from it. There is renewed discussion on changing website template platforms for the temple. It was discussed previously and decided that it was not a good idea to make the switch. Fast forward 6 months and a new committee chair and suddenly we're in discussions again.
This is a bad idea. My husband said as much, but he's an "employee" of the temple, so he can say his opinion, but gets steamrolled a lot. I've been in his shoes. My last job I was the temple "employee" (different temple) and if I was resistant to a change I was a bad and difficult employee.
Now I'm not the employee but the committee member. I am a volunteer. It's a volunteer organization, and honestly, one that we will not be attached too in the future, as my husband won't be an employee there much longer, and we're probably moving far far away.
So why do I care so much? Why do I send a lengthy email to the committee stating my concerns and suggestions to again NOT go down that road.
And why now is there a huge knot in my stomach for putting myself out there? They can't fire me. I can quit the committee. I can stop caring about the temple and future administrators. That's for the future generations to battle.
I so want people to hear me, and accept that what I have to say, what I have to offer matters.
They may all end up jumping all over me and telling me I suck. Honestly, that would be fine. Would make quitting the committee easier.
So then I ask... why the stomach knots?
Am I empowered for stating my mind, or fearful of rejection and not winning this battle. And so what if I lose? So what if I win.
It's small stuff and I'm sitting here sweating it.
I know better.
Don't sweat the small stuff, and it's ALL small stuff.
This is a bad idea. My husband said as much, but he's an "employee" of the temple, so he can say his opinion, but gets steamrolled a lot. I've been in his shoes. My last job I was the temple "employee" (different temple) and if I was resistant to a change I was a bad and difficult employee.
Now I'm not the employee but the committee member. I am a volunteer. It's a volunteer organization, and honestly, one that we will not be attached too in the future, as my husband won't be an employee there much longer, and we're probably moving far far away.
So why do I care so much? Why do I send a lengthy email to the committee stating my concerns and suggestions to again NOT go down that road.
And why now is there a huge knot in my stomach for putting myself out there? They can't fire me. I can quit the committee. I can stop caring about the temple and future administrators. That's for the future generations to battle.
I so want people to hear me, and accept that what I have to say, what I have to offer matters.
They may all end up jumping all over me and telling me I suck. Honestly, that would be fine. Would make quitting the committee easier.
So then I ask... why the stomach knots?
Am I empowered for stating my mind, or fearful of rejection and not winning this battle. And so what if I lose? So what if I win.
It's small stuff and I'm sitting here sweating it.
I know better.
Don't sweat the small stuff, and it's ALL small stuff.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Family! Can't choose them!
Family! :rolling my eyes: I'm having a day today. Just "one of those days" kind of day. My cousin decides to point out, "at least you're not in Japan." REALLY? Is that at all helpful or supportive. Yeah, it's crap in Japan, but does that mean I can't have emotions about "my" day? grumble....
and end Rant!
and end Rant!
Learn How To Do YOUR Job - Part II
FAST FORWARD TWO WEEKS!
OMG, she (co-worker that took my old team and portfolio spot) is STILL asking me for this. I am DONE. Do your own work and if you don't know how, LEARN TO DO IT! We have training at this company for these circumstances. I WILL NOT DO THIS FOR YOU I HAVE MY OWN WORK TO GET DONE ON MY NEW TEAM/PORTFOLIO!!!!
Rant over. Sheesh!
OMG, she (co-worker that took my old team and portfolio spot) is STILL asking me for this. I am DONE. Do your own work and if you don't know how, LEARN TO DO IT! We have training at this company for these circumstances. I WILL NOT DO THIS FOR YOU I HAVE MY OWN WORK TO GET DONE ON MY NEW TEAM/PORTFOLIO!!!!
Rant over. Sheesh!
Monday, March 14, 2011
1 down 2 to go!
My AF is on her way out, and I'm so happy. She's being kind, which tells me the surgery worked and was worth it. Didn't have to take any pain meds of any kind, and she's spotting at the exit door as we speak, so normal cycle, normal flow pattern. Woot!
Have to wait 2 more cycles then can TTC officially again. That puts us in May/June time frame.
Hope everyone is ok. My EDD is next week, and I guess I'm coping by distraction. Don't know if that's wise or not, but that's what I'm doing. It's hard as the day fast approaches (3-23), as well as seeing others in my Due Date groups now having their babies, or about to have their babies. I'm truly happy for them, but can't help think how different my life today would be if I was due to deliver a baby next week myself.
Anyway, no time for a pity party, I have work to do! I can wallow in my self pitty sorrows next week when it's dead at the office.
Have to wait 2 more cycles then can TTC officially again. That puts us in May/June time frame.
Hope everyone is ok. My EDD is next week, and I guess I'm coping by distraction. Don't know if that's wise or not, but that's what I'm doing. It's hard as the day fast approaches (3-23), as well as seeing others in my Due Date groups now having their babies, or about to have their babies. I'm truly happy for them, but can't help think how different my life today would be if I was due to deliver a baby next week myself.
Anyway, no time for a pity party, I have work to do! I can wallow in my self pitty sorrows next week when it's dead at the office.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
AF is here, let the countdown to TTC begin!
AF is here. I'm encouraged as my cycle was 29 days long, 2/8/11 - 3/8/11. Much better than last time. Now hopefully the # of days bleeding will be no more than a week. Less than a week is fine too.
Thus officially ends cycle 1 of 3. 2 more to go!!!
Woot
Now........
where did I put that chocolate????
Thus officially ends cycle 1 of 3. 2 more to go!!!
Woot
Now........
where did I put that chocolate????
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Learn how to do YOUR job!
OMG... >:( co-worker annoyance vent.
The girl that took over my old territory hasn't been doing her state reporting and just tried to get me to do her work! There is about 6 files that need to be researched and reported and they all came in during January 2011 for stuff that happened month's before that. I was no longer with that territory as of 12/20/2010, therefore any and all requests for these that came in after I left that territory are HER responsibility to do. Not Mine! I have enough I'm responsible for. Seriously, do your own work!
Sorry, it's been festering in me, I needed to vent. Just hate lazy employees who lack knowledge and professionalism and try to get everyone else to do their work under the statement, "but i don't know how to do these, can you just do them for me?" NO! Get the training you obviously are lacking and learn how to do YOUR job!
>:(
>:(
>:(
(thinking AF may be coming... I'm in a mood)
The girl that took over my old territory hasn't been doing her state reporting and just tried to get me to do her work! There is about 6 files that need to be researched and reported and they all came in during January 2011 for stuff that happened month's before that. I was no longer with that territory as of 12/20/2010, therefore any and all requests for these that came in after I left that territory are HER responsibility to do. Not Mine! I have enough I'm responsible for. Seriously, do your own work!
Sorry, it's been festering in me, I needed to vent. Just hate lazy employees who lack knowledge and professionalism and try to get everyone else to do their work under the statement, "but i don't know how to do these, can you just do them for me?" NO! Get the training you obviously are lacking and learn how to do YOUR job!
>:(
>:(
>:(
(thinking AF may be coming... I'm in a mood)
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