Yesterday I ate horribly. High calories and cookies and handfuls of m&m's and not one glaring look of shame. But it's like I now have permission to eat badly because I went and got healthy.
(I also ate broccoli, cauliflower, squash, and other assorted veggies... Don't panic! 😜)
Family dynamics are weird. But honestly, it's NICE to be on this side of the spectrum. Oh and they couldn't believe how different I look. Also a nice feeling.
And yes I ate badly. I also had to look at my sister-in-laws dead body in an open casket and support my brother. I also cooked a months worth of food to freeze for my brother which filled a full 24 hours as a cooking marathon!! Oh, and I fed everyone dinner.
And I think one bad day food wise won't undo all this work. And even in my bad eating i still logged it all and had my accountability!
I don't know, guess I thought this was interesting. How the tables have turned and how I can now eat that same cookie, guilt free. Maybe they never judged me. Maybe it was all me! Judging myself. Mistaking their facial expressions as disgust and disapproval. And now I'm confident. Now I'm in control. I'm active. I eat healthy most of the time. And I know that cookie is no big deal now. Not for me. Not anymore.
Like I said... Interesting!
Family dynamics are weird. But honestly, it's NICE to be on this side of the spectrum. Oh and they couldn't believe how different I look. Also a nice feeling.
And yes I ate badly. I also had to look at my sister-in-laws dead body in an open casket and support my brother. I also cooked a months worth of food to freeze for my brother which filled a full 24 hours as a cooking marathon!! Oh, and I fed everyone dinner.
And I think one bad day food wise won't undo all this work. And even in my bad eating i still logged it all and had my accountability!
I don't know, guess I thought this was interesting. How the tables have turned and how I can now eat that same cookie, guilt free. Maybe they never judged me. Maybe it was all me! Judging myself. Mistaking their facial expressions as disgust and disapproval. And now I'm confident. Now I'm in control. I'm active. I eat healthy most of the time. And I know that cookie is no big deal now. Not for me. Not anymore.
Like I said... Interesting!
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