Happy Thanksgiving!

It's Holiday time here in the USA, and the holiday is underway. The turkey's in the oven, the house smells heavenly, and I'm about to take on some side dishes. Just love this holiday. They laziness of it, the family time, the food, just everything.

Enjoy this T-day favorite (the "good part" is about 17 min in), and have a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

TURKEY'S AWAY, WKRP in Cincinnati

So work's going well

While it's fresh in my head. I'm getting a bigger raise than anticipated retro to July 2010, and will appear on my 12/15 paycheck. Yes I asked for this, and they agreed. This raise includes my annual and new position. Also, I'm getting a total of 17 sick/vacation days. Last year only had 12. So an extra week.

I'm moving teams effective Jan. 1, and have to go to team IL (Illinois), and move my cubicle/desk. :( I'm getting a smaller portfolio, only 30 properties to review (HUD Contract Administration) instead of the 67 I have presently and will be doing CORE (HUD Contract Reporting) full time now instead of 1/2 time as originally offered.

The manager in CORE will be my new direct supervisor and will be approving my time card and all of that, thank goodness.

I did ask if instead of moving to IL cubes, I could just move into the CORE office. My boss (Gen Mgr) hadn't thought of that, but now is, so for now, I move in January to the IL cube, and play it out, & I've already begun planting seeds in the CORE office, see if the CORE staff will be ok with that too.

Also planted the IT dept. seed. Just put it out there that I'm also interested in working in the IT dept. since I'm so great with computers and stuff, so at least they know there is the interest. They didn't say no, but also mentioned they were happy to know this. Our IT dept just went from 2 and 1/2 staff to 2 staff, and so I'm putting it out there that I have a strong interest in filling the other 1/2 staff position if it is deemed that a need is indeed there to bump the IT staffing back up.

So we'll see what happens.

I'm so bummed about leaving my Georgia/Iowa (GA/IA) team. I really like it over there, and IL properties are harder.

He (Gen. Mgr) doesn't want me to tell anyone either, he'll be making the announcements soon.

December I'll still be doing GA/IA and CORE 1/2 time. By Jan. 1, I'm full time CORE. :)

So that's it. Overall I'm thrilled. Sad to move my desk and all, but seeing as I'm in the CORE office 75% of my time anyway, it most likely doesn't truly matter that I'm moving my desk and joining the new team. Just really going to miss my cubicle mates. We have lots of fun joking and teasing each other. Oh well, I'll still work with everyone, as we're all still in the same building and all... :) And I'll probably make new friends in the CORE office.

The Talk

Craig and I had "the talk" tonight. Taly fell asleep in the car on the way home, so we parked in the garage and chatted while she slept. Surreal. Anyway, he's worried about graduating from his MBA in February, finding a new and better job and hopefully moving us out of state and closer to family back west this summer. Compound all of this with the possibility of yet another pregnancy, possibly a failed PG, and or one we bring a baby home, in the summer, while we're moving cross country.

Of course none of this has happened and he's flipping out about "what if's". Yes his plan may occur, but as I told him, life just happens and you roll with it. He didn't fully agree to that statement.

He wants us to wait on TTC until he's landed the new job and this future move is over. My 37 year old brain is thinking by the time his plan plays out, it's too late. I feel that my uterus is already damaged and it may already be too late to carry another baby full term and bring home.

Then we talked about adoption, and I expressed my concerns that not great credit may be an adoption blocker for us. We also briefly discussed a surrogate.

IDK, we both agreed to table it for now. I did tell him I didn't want to go back on the BC pills, as I hate the way I feel on them. I also told him I didn't prefer to DTD with condoms. Just don't like the feel. That leaves temping for TTA. So as this cycle comes to an end, I will probably start back up with the temping so I will "sadly" know when we shouldn't be DTD.

I feel broken, and old.

A funny thing happened on the way to DTD

Kid is in bed. Husband checked on her, made sure she was asleep. All systems go. Back in our room, door closed and just about to being the festivities, when I noticed the handle on my bedroom door slowly turn, and two little eyes looking at me through the now opening door.

I could not stop laughing. My daughter who came in to my room because she couldn't sleep was moments away from being scarred for life! After I contained my laughter, I explained to her, that I thought the cat was jumping up and opening the door and "that's" why I laughed. I walked her back to bed, we waited another 30 min or so... no sounds from her end of the home, so I "lock" my door and we have a take-2.

Was great being with my husband and was wonderful that I initiated this time. Just a perfect night. And seriously hilarious.

'Cause sometimes you just have to laugh at the insanity and absurdity of it all.

Vivid BFP dream

I had a vivid dream last night... got my BFP this cycle and was confused how that was at all possible (birth control pills, only on CD 11 and haven't DTD yet), but it was clear as day on the test strip. Guess this means I do still want to be prego after all.

Time Change

I figured I'd let Taly stay up 1 hour past her bedtime to help her adjust to the new time change. 30 min. past her regular bedtime... and she's OUT! So funny, 'cause usually we battle over bedtime and her not being able to sleep. Tonight I decide to just let her stay up, and she's zonked.

Ow!

People NEED to get they're heads out of their tushy. Ugh. Someone today told me I need to suck it up and DTD with DH even though I have ZERO desire because I'm not being fair. So basically I have to pretend to like it so HIS feelings won't be hurt. OMG that pissed me off. If DH is understanding about all of this who the hell are they to tell me what to do? It's DH and my sex life. Ugh. I truly feel once sex doesn't hurt and it isn't only for him, that I'll get interested again. But right now that just isn't my reality.

Oh, and my AF cramps... just as bad as last time. Back to the pecoset. I'm so frustrated and angry about all of this. I'm calling my OB tomorrow morning, will BEG for a refill, and see if anything else can be done.

IDK, maybe I should go back to the BC pills. I hate the way they made me feel though. Maybe they can give me something different. I mean, seriously, how many varieties/brands are out on the market anyway. Surely something else could work, right???

Sorry for the rant, just am in so much pain right now, and stupid comments from people who don't know me or my circumstances, just add fuel to my fire.

Happy Halloween 2010

We did get out to trick and treat, but man it was cold here. Temps below 40 F, and a light snow.

So Up here, we really bundle up the kids. DD wore ugg boots, sweat pants, snow pants over those, a shirt and sweater, then the princess dress, then the winter coat, and cloak to girly it all up. She looked great, and had a wonderful time. Happy to be home and now in a sugar coma dreaming of Hershey bars and m&ms.

We drove about 2 blocks over and Taly and DH got out going door to door while I drove the "chase" car with the heat on and fairly comfy. I chatted with my mom on the cell, while my little girl floated from house to house. She looked like a pink ghost. It was just too cute.

When we got home I out up the hot water for the cocoa, and she and DH peeled off layers of clothes, then went door to door inside our building. I was surprised to find out she did indeed get more candy. Her cuteness get's her far. One couple had no candy, but went out to the store on the corner, bought her some and delivered it to her at our home. Very sweet and kind of them to do so, and very unnecessary. So DH and Taly drew up a handmade thank-you, went back up to the 4th floor to deliver it. Then pizza came, so YAY.

After Taly off to bed, me and DH DTD tonight, and I didn't have any pre-pain meds in me. My "O" was followed with some intense cramps again. Sigh. Was hoping to be on the mend. Maybe one more cycle I'll be back to normal. So to speak.

Made a little slide show of Natalya to share. Hope you all had a wonderful Halloween and happy end to October. Bring on the next round of holidays!