Friday, July 29, 2011

A Cautionary Tale... or... Don't piss me off!

Ever witness someone selfishly taking up 2 spaces in a full parking lot? I did today, and right under my nose. AND she took up the LAST 2 spaces. So as she was walking with her two boys to the movie theater, I pulled up along side her, rolled down my window and told her it was inconsiderate, taking up the last 2 spaces with her 1 car.

She could have been apologetic, and re-parked so we could both have a place for our vehicles, but instead she told me to "piss off".

Well something stirred inside of me. I'm usually so quiet. So nice. So easy going. Not today. I snapped. Being pushed around one time too many? Outright rudeness? I couldn't take it. I parked my car in another lot, and headed into the theater. I saw her in the line at the concession counter. I laid into her. Pointing out how unbelievably rude she was, and selfish, and how she's making a terrible example of how people should behave.

She put her hand in my face and waved me off saying "Be gone!"

OMG!

But instead of saying curse words to her, I got even louder. I made a scene. I publicly embarrassed the hell out of her. I didn't care how I looked, I wasn't going to take it. Not anymore!! I will not be treated like this, and I will not tolerate this. I don't have to take being stepped on and spit at.

I shouted at her, "YOU'RE ARE RUDE", "YOU ARE SELFISH". "RUDE!!" "RUDE!!"

Then I told the manager that they should tow her car, and explained why.

I'm sure they didn't. I'm sure they all wanted me to shut up. I'm sure they all wanted ME to just disappear. Let this be a cautionary tale. I could have keyed her car. I could have slashed her tires. I could have punched that witch in the face. She certainly deserved it.

But I didn't. I made sure that she'll never forget me, or that selfish act, and that there are consequences for your rude actions. To you witch lady I say "Be gone!"

PS.... FUCK YOU, YOU TWAT!

Monday, July 25, 2011

I'm not bossy...

Quote of the day from Natalya, on the ride into school/daycare. (in response to my asking her not to be so bossy-she was telling Craig he couldn't scratch his beard)

"I'm not bossy, I'm demanding."

Can I just remind you all that she's only 4??? We laughed so hard!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Being proactive at work...

Being proactive at work... in case we are going to be here in VT a while longer and in hopes to save my position with (my current company) in case layoffs still are a possibility... (even though presently they say we're safe)

This is a copy of an email I sent to the company's Gen. Mgr. this morning. If nothing else, showing him I am a super trooper and want to stay...

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Barbara H...
Date: Wed, Jul 20, 2011 at 9:29 AM
Subject: New Team/New Team Leaders
To: Richard C...


Hi Rich,

In lieu of the possibility of CORE going away, and new states coming
on board, I was wondering if there will be, or is a need for new team
leader's? If so, I would like to express an interest in taking on that
role.

While I do love it in the CORE office, and find the work challenging
and fun, I also recognize my need to remain busy here, and
welcome the opportunity to get my hands into more cookie jars,
essentially taking on more work, and enhancing my skill base,
utilizing my existing management experience obtained from my past
positions.

I'm happy to have a conversation to discuss this possibility further.
If it turns out that we're all set with the way we are presently set
up, then I'm happy to roll up my sleeves to help with the transition
and new team that I will be joining in any capacity possible that is
useful and helpful.

Thank you for your time and consideration.

Respectfully,
Barbara Hammond

----------------
I suspect I will not get a reply, as that's more the common thing to happen when I contact Rich, but still, figured it couldn't hurt sending it out there.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

More news on the Job Front

Job Update...

Our prez has been hustling with some re-bids, and we're 90% certain we're getting 3 more states (New York, New Jersey, and Maryland) to add to Florida, which we just got, and they're big states, at least NY is, so instead of laying off, we'll be hiring!

Actually just hired 3 people to start August 1. So that's encouraging.

Several scenarios may still have us hosed, but for now, the job is stable. That being said, the department I was promoted into is a dead duck, as the new states we're getting are states we work on in that department and the loss there is a 3/4 loss of business. SIGH.

I'll probably just get re-absorbed into the main focus of work here at my company, and probably get to keep my "raise" from that promotion. And at least I'll have a job I mostly like. I'd feel better if he said flat out that there will not be any layoffs. All he said was it appears to be stable, and looks as if we're going to be needing more help. So will just have to see how it all unfolds.

My manager in my CORE department did say that if layoffs were to occur, the would be performance based, not length of time at the company based. So if that is the criteria, I should be safe.

Knots in my tummy still huge. Think I should still keep looking for a new job? I do love it here, but don't want to be screwed this fall. Maybe I should just continue to encourage and assist Craig in getting that new MBA job and get us out of here.

So good news and bad. Get to stay on (probably) but lose my promotion responsibilities. Maybe I'll go for team leader/manager for one of the new states we're going to get. Not much in a pay increase but more work. I need to have work or I go crazy!!!

Think WINE is in order tonight!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

UPDATE from the President of EPS

UPDATE:

Well, somewhat of an update. This email just sent to all EPS staff from our company President:

To all staff:

I just wanted to let you all know that there's a high probability - perhaps 80%, in my estimation - that we will be able to give you some very good news.

I wish I could say more but I can't share any more right now. I also do not have an estimate of when I can share with you - there's a lot going on right now, and just as I said in meeting, we will know more given time - perhaps as much as two weeks. Do know we are doing everything we can to look out for your (and EPS') interests.

-Fred
--
Frederick J. Hutchins
President, EPS, Inc.

So maybe smooth sailing ahead, and this scare is just that, a scarey moment that will soon pass.

In the meantime, I'm cleaning up my resume, dusting off my interview clothes, setting up an online profile with a business email address and google clean searchable data, etc.

I'll keep you posted.

No such thing a "Job Security"

I had a crap night, tossed and turned. Thank you stress.

I did a quick scan of open jobs in my local radius... ugh... nada! Craptastic. I know every week a new job may present itself. I don't know if we can make it with me on unemployment only. Scary times ahead. However, this seems to now be the true motivator to kick DH's butt into gear to find a new position thanks to his new MBA. Time to get serious and start looking... for real now...

He's got the better hiring potential thanks to his MBA. Maybe he can get a new job, we move, doesn't matter that my company is a sinking ship, and I get pregnant... trah la la.

Right, that is not how it works. Sigh.

Current strategy... make myself indispensable at the office. Just picked up some extra work. Show them I'm worth the work of 2-3 employees and that they can't live without me. So even though I'm newer here, (2 years this month) I'm highly valuable.

I did get promoted last year, and that may keep me safe, but as I've learned years ago, there is no such thing as job security. Even though I'm "awesome" there are people here who have been here for 15+ years. Surely their seniority weighs heavily. My only hope is to prove I'm worth keeping. May work, may not, but at least I can get a decent recommendation letter, right?

sigh.

Sailing a sinking ship!

Got some bad news at work. My company got obliterated in the annual contract bid. We lost 4 out of 5 states, and gained 1. Our CORE office (one of my departments) will still be around, but not clear who will be working in it. That means on average, the company will have to get rid of 20-25 employees. (We only have 51 employees)

My job secured until September. Lawsuits may be filed, but most likely, I'm out of a job come September. I may be safe because I'm already in the CORE department, but only 1/2 time. And I'm one of the more recent hired employees, so even though I do a good job, it may not matter.

If let go, it'd be through no fault of my own, so I'd get unemployment, but that is limited, and no extensions allowed.

Kind of freaking out, a bit of delayed shock. This was what the meeting I missed yesterday was about. So that sucks. 1) I really like my job. 2) the skills don't transfer over 3) not a large open job pool in Vermont.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Are we having fun yet???? No, not yet!

I thought weekends were for relaxing. I'm more stressed out today then I was all week at the office, and it was a crappy week! I need a Saturday do-over and need my normally pleasant and nice and sweet daughter to return. The tantrum monster needs to just go away. She whined ALL day! Gimme was her mantra. We took her to the pool, the playground, the petting farm, not good enough. I made a lovely dinner, pasta with red sauce and corn on the cob. She LIKES pasta. But not tonight. She wouldn't eat. Sat at the table crying and carrying on. Finally I just gave up and told her to get down and get ready for bed. SHE has the nerve to ask for dessert! Uh, NO! Thus the crying and tantrum came back. OMG. I am not giving her dessert, if she's not going to eat her dinner. Give me a break here! She pulled this same crap last night. Refused to eat the cheese pizza, and wanted to go straight to cake. What parent would let that happen??? This new pattern sucks, and lord help me, I don't seem to have the patience for it. Maybe I'm just hot. Maybe I need another glass of wine? IDK, all I know is her whining and tantrums really put me in a foul mood. And it's supposed to be my holiday weekend to chill out and have family fun. Are we having FUN yet??? I think not.


maybe tomorrow will be a better day.